A bit of moody.

Have I mentioned before that I probably have a "seasonal mood structure"? I think it MIGHT run in the family...but there it is... with a cyclical precision that I have yet to chart, I get...moody.

The last couple of days have been such. I think I might be justified in feeling this way a little bit. It has been 6 months since I lived with my family, and 2.5 to go. I woke up alone last night and stared at my uniforms in my closet, at the rank insignia on my sleeves, wondering what I was doing so far away from my beloved family. It's obvious on a logical (yet bizarrely illogical) level what I am doing, taking care of my family the best way I know how. This time is almost over, but that doesn't change the mood.

I just plain miss my family. I get to see Emily for nice four day weekend this weekend. But even this strikes me as somewhat insane...how much effort (baby sitters, plane tickets, hotels, waivers for staying out of my dorm etc etc) it takes just to see my own wife for a couple of days. It can just be very...strange. I sometimes start to get sick to my stomach like I'm stuck in a terrible dream.

And the happy ending. I'm not "in the depths of despair" for certain, that would be just plain pagan of me...

For crying out loud, try your best not to take love and comfort for granted.

All Peace

Emily and Ivy are taking a nap, Ari is wandering around the house alternating between Captian-Hooking everything in site, and slowly bouncing off the walls with blanket over his head.

And I am drinking fresh brewed coffee. How is life? Good.

Hear 'O steady and shaky hands.

Someday we will sail away. Not just away. We will sail There. It's no easy task.

And sometimes we faithless yell. "Captain, awake! We are drowning and You sleep!"

Ought we not follow in His way? To lay down beside the Master and rest a while in peace, tho the world wash away.

Lord, Wash it all Away.

Dendratical Guilt

There is something AMAZING about having a clean inbox!